In the months of January through March, I was communicating with this boy in Lakeland. In the cyberworld, he seemed so perfect for me. We both had a strong passion for Broadway, and could go on for HOURS discussing it. We also had same political beliefs, same taste in music, art, food/cruisines, and so many other traits. We ended up not being able to spend a day without at least texting each other whenever we had a chance, and after our day, we would end up staying up until 3 in the morning just talking on the Internet.

This was probably the best relationship I had ever had with someone. I felt like I could tell him ANYTHING, and he would never hold it against me. He felt the same, and we could tell each other our flaws & perfections.

Suddenly, out of the blue, he told me that his ex-boyfriend had wanted him back. The ex left Bryan (note, I changed his name to protect the innocent) when he was caught sleeping in his car with alcohol on his breath. Bryan did drink a lot, but he never drove. However, law has it stated that if a cop finds you in a car with alcohol levels in your blood, then there is NO excuse that you can use to get away with it. He was slammed in jail and had his license taken away.

To me, that's a terrible ex. A good boyfriend would help him and be there for him, no matter what. At least that's what I believe. When he told me the story, my heart really went out to him. I had told him what I thought of him, and that he was making a mistake for taking him back.

But he wouldn't accept that fact, and ended it there.

NOW, nearly 4 months after he blocked me from all forms of communication, he had decided to text me today, telling me he was in town for a business meeting and wanted to meet.

Instantly, my instincts told me to give him a second chance. That maybe, JUST MAYBE, he had learned his mistake and realized how much I am worthy or how much of a better person I am to have as a boyfriend or even a friend. But at the same time, my heart & guts are telling me that I would just end up getting hurt again.

I have asked two of my dearest friends for advice, and they both told me to go out with him, but maintain a distance, to not allow him get to my emotions.

But can I handle that? After Bryan, I've been clingy towards 3 other men, all of which were very unsuccessful. I was hurt again, 3 times, and I know for a fact that if one of those assholes would come back to me, I would cave in to them in a matter of seconds.

So, since I have thought Bryan as Mr. Right, Mr. Perfect...I just know I'll let my defenses down.

So what do I do?
What should I do?

I replied to his message that I would think about it...

But what should I do?

I wish I could find some sign to tell me that this would be either successful or not...